Wyatt is 1!

Yesterday, Wyatt turned 1! I still remember last year like it was yesterday. Toby came home from work on my b-day and I told him that we may be heading to the hospital soon. I was in a fair amount of pain but I wanted to celebrate my b-day first. So, he went and got pizza and pop and brought it home b/c I was in too much pain to go out in public. We ate our dinner and within an hour we were headed for the hospital. They got me all hooked up and were just waiting to see what happened. Toby brought the computer and was watching a baseball game. The nurse came in and we were all talking about baseball when my water broke...Finally, it was time! This was about 8pm and Wyatt decided to arrive just 15 min after my b-day.

We have had a lot of fun this last year...he is a joy to be around (most of the time -lol). He has been walking for two months now. He has a few words he can say or at least we know he is trying to say them, kitty, doggy, good job, turtle, duck, mama, dad-da, and Dora. He is absolutely in love with Dora. He is eating mostly table food now. He still gets a morning bottle and occasionally baby food. He switched over to milk/sippy cup without much problems. He is a very active and happy little guy. He will sit and watch tv but other than that he is pretty much on the go.

He loves to be outside. Toby and I took him hiking at our local state park. It's a very nice park and I can't wait til we can take him camping there this summer for his first time. Below are a few pics of our hike.

We had his first b-day party last weekend so my brother and his family could come. He had a Dora/baseball theme since those are the two things he likes most. He did very well at his smash cake and make a nice mess of himself. We then went to Happy Joe's Pizza for dinner. We came home about 6:30 and he went to sleep as soon as we got home. He slept until morning, guess we wore him out good!

I'm looking forward to this summer and all the things we can do outside. Next month, we are going to Ireland! I can't wait!!! Wyatt is going with us so it will be interesting to see how he does on the plane and how he adjusts to the time change. It will be so great to finally meet Karen and her family after talking with her online for three years now. And...the other day, the last TTTS mom that I still talk to had her baby girl. Now Karen, Rochelle, Andrea, Sara and I all have gone on to have healthy babies! I'm so happy for all of us to be able to have another chance.

So...here are some pics from the last month or so.





Not the most flattering pic of Wyatt but I still think this is cute. This is his cousin Jake.

Playing chase

Playing chase, originally uploaded by kkirk78.

Wyatt's favorite game is to play chase around the house. I ran into the kitchen and hid and waited for him. This is him finding me around the corner...

Waylon, Jesse & Wyatt

Friday will be the twins' 3rd birthday. I can't believe it's been 3 years already! I'm very glad that while the intensity of the pain has diminished the memory of holding them has not. Those memories of them in the hospital are still as plain as day, which I am very thankful for.

I feel very blessed to have Wyatt after everything we have been through. He is perfect: healthy, cute and so much fun! There are times still that I see the twins in him. He was napping the other day and his jaw and mouth still looked like the twins. It's crazy after all this time that he would still resemble them at times.

Wyatt has been such a joy lately to watch. He is soooo observant. We were outside today sitting on the sidewalk playing with leaves. I was twirling one in my hand and Wyatt turned to the side and saw the shadow of the leaf moving. He would look at the leaf and then at my hand and then back at the leaf. It amazed me that he would be able to put those two together. He is walking around very good now and his favorite game is to be chased around the house. I have a cute video of us playing chase that I will put up.

On the other hand, he is starting to show us some tantrums once in awhile. If he doesn't like what I'm doing or what I'm trying to stop him from doing he will plop down on his butt and put his head between his legs while fussing. If I try to pick him up he just tries to keep bending over. So...I just leave him and ignore him. Once I do that he stops immediately. I have to admit thought, it's kind of funny...

It will always be mixed emotions because I am pretty sure that if the twins had lived Wyatt would not be here...so I like to think that Jesse and Waylon took the best of them and made Wyatt. That way I have them both still. I just feel extra special that I get to watch Wyatt grow up!

What's crazier to me than celebrating the twins 3rd birthday will be celebrating Wyatt's first b-day a month and 5 days from the boys!! I can't believe it's almost here!

To have or not to have...that is the question

Over the last several months I have been trying to decide on whether or not I want another child. If we were to have another baby we were thinking of trying at the end of the summer but...I am leaning more towards no more. I have a lot of reasons but it mainly boils down to me just being selfish and wanting to enjoy life and my husband. I love Wyatt and enjoy him but I feel if we only have 1 that we will be able to give him more things and go on more trips with him. I had postpartum depression after I had Wyatt and even though I was on medication it was still very hard. Plus I really don't want to be pregnant again. I may not have the contraction problems that I had last time but if I do, I wouldn't be able to work. This time since I am only working part time I would be out of an income as well. I know there are times in the future that I would want Wyatt to have a (living) brother or sister but I just don't know if I can do it. After a sentence like that, most peoples comment would be...you just do it when it happens. But why? If it''s something I'm not sure of then why put myself in a situation that I can control. I'm happy with the way things are now so why should I change them? I feel some people are born to be moms and others like me are not...it doesn't mean I'm a bad mom or hate it but that I have other things in life that I want besides raising kids. Any suggestions or thoughts on to have or not to have are welcomed...

Kendra

Wyatt is walking

Wyatt walking, originally uploaded by kkirk78.

This afternoon Wyatt started taking about 4 or 5 steps, before that it had been just 2 or 3. Luckily Toby was home this afternoon so he got to see it too. Well, as the day went on so did the number of steps. This video was taken around 4pm and at 7pm I skyped my parents and he was walking 5-6 feet! It's just crazy how fast they can master something. I'm sure in the next few days he'll become a pro at it. He started crawling the day before he turned 8 mos and now he is walking 5 days after he turned 10 mos old! What fun!

March of Dimes

My mom and I will be doing the March of Dimes walk again this year in memory of Jesse and Waylon. If you would like to donate to such a great cause or join us in the walk, please click below.

Hello me...

Hello me,
It's nice to see you again. It's been awhile and I've missed you.


I'm soooo happy to say that my postpartum depression is gone! I was on lexapro since Wyatt was just a few weeks old. I tried to go off of it when he was about 4 months and then again a few months later...no dice. It was bad...so back on the meds I went. However, I have been off the meds now for just about a month and I'm happy to say that I feel like me again. It's just, plain, nice! My dr. said it would take about 8 or 9 months and what do ya know, he was right :)